"Doing is a quantum leap from imagining."
-- Grace Walsh, Reiki Shamanism Master Teacher
I've imagined I would start a blog for some time now. But that's as far as I've got. Imagining it. Thinking about it. But Now Is The Time to DO IT. July is for Jumping. Taking Quantum Leaps. So here I gooooo! Jumping off the cliff into the blogosphere! Woo Hoo000000!
What's delayed me in starting a blog? The thought that the world is over stuffed with online opinions and blogs already. Why do we need another blog out there? To get a purely unadulterated answer, I'll defer to my 5 year old self. I'm pretty sure that, should she have the desire to draw a cat, the last thing she would think is, "Nah, forget it. What does the world need with another drawing of a cat? Nevermind!" No, she wouldn't think that. In fact, she wouldn't think about it at all. She'd just do it. Why? Purely because she wants to. Simply because she has the urge to draw a cat in that moment. Her spirit has moved her to draw and she is answering that call.
Well, this blog is the 5 year old in me answering the call to write. I just must simply keep reminding myself that whether the world "needs" another blog is irrelevant -- what's important is that I'm called to do it. And I'm answering that call. For me. Just me.
I'm reading a book called Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear. This paragraph sums it up perfectly: "Your own reasons to create are enough. Merely by pursuing what you love, you may inadvertently end up helping us plenty. ('There is no love which does not become help,' taught the theologian Paul Tillich.) Do whatever brings you to life, then. Follow your own fascinations, obsessions, and compulsions. Trust them. Create whatever causes a revolution in your heart."
-- Liz Gilbert, author of Eat, Pray, Love
Thank you, Liz. Thank you Grace. While I'm on the subject of thanks, I thank you Gay for your encouragement in starting this, and to you, Emily, for planting the seed of blog-writing in the first place!
And so, this blog is a space where I intend to explore the importance of Lightening Up. Letting go of things no longer serving me. Celebrating successes of releasing and pondering why sometimes it's so hard to do so.
There's so many things -- and non-things for that matter -- that weigh us down, that hold us back, that block our way. There's household items that I find myself constantly questioning the relevance of in my life. There's physical body weight that I've accumulated over the years. There's non-physical energy weight (aka fear, worry, doubt, dread, anxiety, guilt, projection) that I've accumulated since birth. All of the above no longer serve my highest and best. All of the above are gently but firmly invited to leave. And the most important thing in the process of letting go -- I'm willing to say good-bye to them.
Thank you -- to the household items, the extra body weight, and the fear based thoughts. Each of you have been there for me when I needed you (or thought I did). Each of you have served me in some capacity. Whether it's kitchen gadgets that protected me from getting hurt in the kitchen to extra weight that protected me from getting hurt in romance, to fear based thoughts that protected me from failing (and thus also from succeeding) -- all of those things have served a purpose at one time. So I thank you.
But I also recognize that I am now ready to brave the world without you. I can not only survive without a strawberry slicer, 30 extra pounds, and enough self doubt to power a rocket ship to Mars -- nay PLUTO (and sorry brother, but you'll always be a planet in my book)... I am able to not only survive without these things -- I actually can't continue living WITH them. I mean, I Won't. I am choosing not to carry them along anymore. I am choosing to put them down. To lighten my load. To Lighten Up. To Enlighten up. Ha HA! (Interesting... The written sound of laughter -- "ha" -- is also the first two letters of HAPPY.)
So I welcome you, Dear Reader, to the Blog Of Light. Please feel free to share any celebrations of lightening up in your life by emailing me and I will post them to the site (should you choose to share them). Light workers of the world, Unite! You have nothing to lose but your darkness!
Speaking of light, I am sitting on a rock in Vermont, basking in the light of the sun. Watching and listening to the river do its thing. Watching and listening to my 9-year old son do HIS thing. Watching and listening to my inner 5-year old do HER thing. And she is doing it. And doing it. And doing it. Not thinking, doing. Quantum leaping through time and space. Quantum Leaping Girl, to the rescue!! (We need to work on my superhero name fer sure.).
And who is she rescuing? Me. From myself.
Oh, yeah. There's one last person to thank -- Me.